Look Up
Wow a lot’s happened… Since my last post I’ve:
- Started a new job
- Moved to a new city
- Started Learning (another) programming language
- Became a plant dad
- Built an interpreter (what?)
- Explored a new park!
Now I’m not going to use this as an excuse for not posting (again) astronauts literally went to the moon and back since the last time I posted. I also can’t say that I will post more often either, a lot of the time I would think of a topic to write about, then discard it because I didn’t think I had enough to say to warrant a blog post. Then I remembered I can write whatever I want, how ever much I want. I can ramble I can be wordless, I can also say “I” however much I want (16 so far!)
Anyways, I think the reason I stopped posting (again!) was because after awhile, I end up feeling a responsibility to post, as if it’s a job rather than my hobby, and I think I see that pattern in a lot of my life. Even in what is my actual job, although it is the job I dreamed so many nights about and worked so hard for, I find myself scraping myself out of bed every morning rather than being happy about it.
At my apartment complex theres a cute little park with walking trails and a little pond. And whether it be my scoliosis or the fabled Gen-Z-cell-phone back I find that when I walk I naturally tend to look down rather than directly ahead. During my walk through the woods today I realized that my line-of-sight has completely negated my reason for walking in the woods in the first place, instead of going out of my way to go to the park, I could’ve just walked around the parking lot, a treadmill, or circled around my unit for an hour, in every case I’d just be looking at my feet! This has prompted me to make a concerted effort to look ahead and above myself. To see the grand trees touch the gray Ohio sky and to watch the new spring leaves finally start to dot those trees made the effort instantly worth it.
I feel like this could be applied in other areas of my life. Instead of feeling pressure to post to this blog (or post anything of quality) I could see this as journaling, or a rabbit hole for others to stumble down and maybe just relate to or be inspired by. I could see my job not as just the everyday work but as a catalyst for a better future for my family, as a spaceship to bring me to more exciting opportunities. But a journal doesn’t write itself and a spaceship doesn’t fly itself, so I just need to continue to work, just with a new perspective.
If this seemed rambly, it is. No I will not be proofreading it. As one last word, I added pictures a took from the park to the gallery